Maya… I'm Sorry

Maya,

I don’t know if I deserve to say this anymore, but I need to.

I’m sorry.

I’ve replayed everything so many times in my head — the moment you asked for my phone, the moment I lied, the moment I let your trust fall apart in front of me… and the worst part is, I can’t undo any of it.

You were honest with me. You spoke to me with clarity, calmness, and maturity. And I replied with confusion, excuses, and fear.

And that is something I’ll always regret.

It hurts knowing **I became the reason for your disappointment**, when all you ever showed me was patience and understanding.

I wish I had handled things differently. I wish I had told the truth. I wish I hadn’t broken something so fragile and important.

You have no idea how heavy this feels on my heart right now.

If distance is what you need, I understand. If silence is what you prefer, I’ll respect it. If forgiveness is too much to ask, I won’t force it.

But I hope you know this:

I never lied because you meant less — I lied because I was scared of losing someone who meant more.

And ironically, that fear made me lose exactly that.

You deserved honesty. And I failed you.

If there ever comes a day when you feel even a small softness in your heart, even a tiny space where forgiveness can sit quietly… I will be here. Not to justify myself, but to show you, with actions, that I can be better than the person who hurt you.

— Abhishek